Edmund now believed himself perfectly acquainted with all that Fanny could tell, or could leave to be
conjectured of her sentiments, and he was satisfied. It had been, as he before presumed, too hasty a measure on
Crawford’s side, and time must be given to make the idea first familiar, and then agreeable to her. She must be used to
the consideration of his being in love with her, and then a return of affection might not be very distant.
He gave this opinion as the result of the conversation to his father; and recommended there being nothing more said to
her: no farther attempts to influence or persuade; but that everything should be left to Crawford’s assiduities, and the
natural workings of her own mind.
Sir Thomas promised that it should be so. Edmund’s account of Fanny’s disposition he could believe to be just; he
supposed she had all those feelings, but he must consider it as very unfortunate that she had; for, less willing
than his son to trust to the future, he could not help fearing that if such very long allowances of time and habit were
necessary for her, she might not have persuaded herself into receiving his addresses properly before the young man’s
inclination for paying them were over. There was nothing to be done, however, but to submit quietly and hope the
best.
The promised visit from “her friend,” as Edmund called Miss Crawford, was a formidable threat to Fanny, and she lived
in continual terror of it. As a sister, so partial and so angry, and so little scrupulous of what she said, and in
another light so triumphant and secure, she was in every way an object of painful alarm. Her displeasure, her
penetration, and her happiness were all fearful to encounter; and the dependence of having others present when they met
was Fanny’s only support in looking forward to it. She absented herself as little as possible from Lady Bertram, kept
away from the East room, and took no solitary walk in the shrubbery, in her caution to avoid any sudden attack.
She succeeded. She was safe in the breakfast-room, with her aunt, when Miss Crawford did come; and the first misery
over, and Miss Crawford looking and speaking with much less particularity of expression than she had anticipated, Fanny
began to hope there would be nothing worse to be endured than a half-hour of moderate agitation. But here she hoped too
much; Miss Crawford was not the slave of opportunity. She was determined to see Fanny alone, and therefore said to her
tolerably soon, in a low voice, “I must speak to you for a few minutes somewhere”; words that Fanny felt all over her, in
all her pulses and all her nerves. Denial was impossible. Her habits of ready submission, on the contrary, made her
almost instantly rise and lead the way out of the room. She did it with wretched feelings, but it was inevitable.
They were no sooner in the hall than all restraint of countenance was over on Miss Crawford’s side. She immediately
shook her head at Fanny with arch, yet affectionate reproach, and taking her hand, seemed hardly able to help beginning
directly. She said nothing, however, but, “Sad, sad girl! I do not know when I shall have done scolding you,” and had
discretion enough to reserve the rest till they might be secure of having four walls to themselves. Fanny naturally
turned upstairs, and took her guest to the apartment which was now always fit for comfortable use; opening the door,
however, with a most aching heart, and feeling that she had a more distressing scene before her than ever that spot had
yet witnessed. But the evil ready to burst on her was at least delayed by the sudden change in Miss Crawford’s ideas; by
the strong effect on her mind which the finding herself in the East room again produced.
“Ha!” she cried, with instant animation, “am I here again? The East room! Once only was I in this room before”; and
after stopping to look about her, and seemingly to retrace all that had then passed, she added, “Once only before. Do you
remember it? I came to rehearse. Your cousin came too; and we had a rehearsal. You were our audience and prompter. A
delightful rehearsal. I shall never forget it. Here we were, just in this part of the room: here was your cousin, here
was I, here were the chairs. Oh! why will such things ever pass away?”
Happily for her companion, she wanted no answer. Her mind was entirely self-engrossed. She was in a reverie of sweet
remembrances.
“The scene we were rehearsing was so very remarkable! The subject of it so very — very — what shall I say? He was to
be describing and recommending matrimony to me. I think I see him now, trying to be as demure and composed as Anhalt
ought, through the two long speeches. ‘When two sympathetic hearts meet in the marriage state, matrimony may be called a
happy life.’ I suppose no time can ever wear out the impression I have of his looks and voice as he said those words. It
was curious, very curious, that we should have such a scene to play! If I had the power of recalling any one week of my
existence, it should be that week — that acting week. Say what you would, Fanny, it should be that; for I never
knew such exquisite happiness in any other. His sturdy spirit to bend as it did! Oh! it was sweet beyond expression. But
alas, that very evening destroyed it all. That very evening brought your most unwelcome uncle. Poor Sir Thomas, who was
glad to see you? Yet, Fanny, do not imagine I would now speak disrespectfully of Sir Thomas, though I certainly did hate
him for many a week. No, I do him justice now. He is just what the head of such a family should be. Nay, in sober
sadness, I believe I now love you all.” And having said so, with a degree of tenderness and consciousness which Fanny had
never seen in her before, and now thought only too becoming, she turned away for a moment to recover herself. “I have had
a little fit since I came into this room, as you may perceive,” said she presently, with a playful smile, “but it is over
now; so let us sit down and be comfortable; for as to scolding you, Fanny, which I came fully intending to do, I have not
the heart for it when it comes to the point.” And embracing her very affectionately, “Good, gentle Fanny! when I think of
this being the last time of seeing you for I do not know how long, I feel it quite impossible to do anything but love
you.”
Fanny was affected. She had not foreseen anything of this, and her feelings could seldom withstand the melancholy
influence of the word “last.” She cried as if she had loved Miss Crawford more than she possibly could; and Miss
Crawford, yet farther softened by the sight of such emotion, hung about her with fondness, and said, “I hate to leave
you. I shall see no one half so amiable where I am going. Who says we shall not be sisters? I know we shall. I feel that
we are born to be connected; and those tears convince me that you feel it too, dear Fanny.”
Fanny roused herself, and replying only in part, said, “But you are only going from one set of friends to another. You
are going to a very particular friend.”
“Yes, very true. Mrs. Fraser has been my intimate friend for years. But I have not the least inclination to go near
her. I can think only of the friends I am leaving: my excellent sister, yourself, and the Bertrams in general. You have
all so much more heart among you than one finds in the world at large. You all give me a feeling of being able
to trust and confide in you, which in common intercourse one knows nothing of. I wish I had settled with Mrs. Fraser not
to go to her till after Easter, a much better time for the visit, but now I cannot put her off. And when I have done with
her I must go to her sister, Lady Stornaway, because she was rather my most particular friend of the two, but I
have not cared much for her these three years.”
After this speech the two girls sat many minutes silent, each thoughtful: Fanny meditating on the different sorts of
friendship in the world, Mary on something of less philosophic tendency. She first spoke again.
“How perfectly I remember my resolving to look for you upstairs, and setting off to find my way to the East room,
without having an idea whereabouts it was! How well I remember what I was thinking of as I came along, and my looking in
and seeing you here sitting at this table at work; and then your cousin’s astonishment, when he opened the door, at
seeing me here! To be sure, your uncle’s returning that very evening! There never was anything quite like it.”
Another short fit of abstraction followed, when, shaking it off, she thus attacked her companion.
“Why, Fanny, you are absolutely in a reverie. Thinking, I hope, of one who is always thinking of you. Oh! that I could
transport you for a short time into our circle in town, that you might understand how your power over Henry is thought of
there! Oh! the envyings and heartburnings of dozens and dozens; the wonder, the incredulity that will be felt at hearing
what you have done! For as to secrecy, Henry is quite the hero of an old romance, and glories in his chains. You should
come to London to know how to estimate your conquest. If you were to see how he is courted, and how I am courted for his
sake! Now, I am well aware that I shall not be half so welcome to Mrs. Fraser in consequence of his situation with you.
When she comes to know the truth she will, very likely, wish me in Northamptonshire again; for there is a daughter of Mr.
Fraser, by a first wife, whom she is wild to get married, and wants Henry to take. Oh! she has been trying for him to
such a degree. Innocent and quiet as you sit here, you cannot have an idea of the sensation that you will be
occasioning, of the curiosity there will be to see you, of the endless questions I shall have to answer! Poor Margaret
Fraser will be at me for ever about your eyes and your teeth, and how you do your hair, and who makes your shoes. I wish
Margaret were married, for my poor friend’s sake, for I look upon the Frasers to be about as unhappy as most other
married people. And yet it was a most desirable match for Janet at the time. We were all delighted. She could not do
otherwise than accept him, for he was rich, and she had nothing; but he turns out ill-tempered and exigeant, and
wants a young woman, a beautiful young woman of five-and-twenty, to be as steady as himself. And my friend does not
manage him well; she does not seem to know how to make the best of it. There is a spirit of irritation which, to say
nothing worse, is certainly very ill-bred. In their house I shall call to mind the conjugal manners of Mansfield
Parsonage with respect. Even Dr. Grant does shew a thorough confidence in my sister, and a certain consideration for her
judgment, which makes one feel there is attachment; but of that I shall see nothing with the Frasers. I shall be
at Mansfield for ever, Fanny. My own sister as a wife, Sir Thomas Bertram as a husband, are my standards of perfection.
Poor Janet has been sadly taken in, and yet there was nothing improper on her side: she did not run into the match
inconsiderately; there was no want of foresight. She took three days to consider of his proposals, and during those three
days asked the advice of everybody connected with her whose opinion was worth having, and especially applied to my late
dear aunt, whose knowledge of the world made her judgment very generally and deservedly looked up to by all the young
people of her acquaintance, and she was decidedly in favour of Mr. Fraser. This seems as if nothing were a security for
matrimonial comfort. I have not so much to say for my friend Flora, who jilted a very nice young man in the Blues for the
sake of that horrid Lord Stornaway, who has about as much sense, Fanny, as Mr. Rushworth, but much worse-looking, and
with a blackguard character. I had my doubts at the time about her being right, for he has not even the air of a
gentleman, and now I am sure she was wrong. By the bye, Flora Ross was dying for Henry the first winter she came out. But
were I to attempt to tell you of all the women whom I have known to be in love with him, I should never have done. It is
you, only you, insensible Fanny, who can think of him with anything like indifference. But are you so insensible as you
profess yourself? No, no, I see you are not.”
There was, indeed, so deep a blush over Fanny’s face at that moment as might warrant strong suspicion in a predisposed
mind.
“Excellent creature! I will not tease you. Everything shall take its course. But, dear Fanny, you must allow that you
were not so absolutely unprepared to have the question asked as your cousin fancies. It is not possible but that you must
have had some thoughts on the subject, some surmises as to what might be. You must have seen that he was trying to please
you by every attention in his power. Was not he devoted to you at the ball? And then before the ball, the necklace! Oh!
you received it just as it was meant. You were as conscious as heart could desire. I remember it perfectly.”
“Do you mean, then, that your brother knew of the necklace beforehand? Oh! Miss Crawford, that was not
fair.”
“Knew of it! It was his own doing entirely, his own thought. I am ashamed to say that it had never entered my head,
but I was delighted to act on his proposal for both your sakes.”
“I will not say,” replied Fanny, “that I was not half afraid at the time of its being so, for there was something in
your look that frightened me, but not at first; I was as unsuspicious of it at first — indeed, indeed I was. It is as
true as that I sit here. And had I had an idea of it, nothing should have induced me to accept the necklace. As to your
brother’s behaviour, certainly I was sensible of a particularity: I had been sensible of it some little time, perhaps two
or three weeks; but then I considered it as meaning nothing: I put it down as simply being his way, and was as far from
supposing as from wishing him to have any serious thoughts of me. I had not, Miss Crawford, been an inattentive observer
of what was passing between him and some part of this family in the summer and autumn. I was quiet, but I was not blind.
I could not but see that Mr. Crawford allowed himself in gallantries which did mean nothing.”
“Ah! I cannot deny it. He has now and then been a sad flirt, and cared very little for the havoc he might be making in
young ladies’ affections. I have often scolded him for it, but it is his only fault; and there is this to be said, that
very few young ladies have any affections worth caring for. And then, Fanny, the glory of fixing one who has been shot at
by so many; of having it in one’s power to pay off the debts of one’s sex! Oh! I am sure it is not in woman’s nature to
refuse such a triumph.”
Fanny shook her head. “I cannot think well of a man who sports with any woman’s feelings; and there may often be a
great deal more suffered than a stander-by can judge of.”
“I do not defend him. I leave him entirely to your mercy, and when he has got you at Everingham, I do not care how
much you lecture him. But this I will say, that his fault, the liking to make girls a little in love with him, is not
half so dangerous to a wife’s happiness as a tendency to fall in love himself, which he has never been addicted to. And I
do seriously and truly believe that he is attached to you in a way that he never was to any woman before; that he loves
you with all his heart, and will love you as nearly for ever as possible. If any man ever loved a woman for ever, I think
Henry will do as much for you.”
Fanny could not avoid a faint smile, but had nothing to say.
“I cannot imagine Henry ever to have been happier,” continued Mary presently, “than when he had succeeded in getting
your brother’s commission.”
She had made a sure push at Fanny’s feelings here.
“Oh! yes. How very, very kind of him.”
“I know he must have exerted himself very much, for I know the parties he had to move. The Admiral hates trouble, and
scorns asking favours; and there are so many young men’s claims to be attended to in the same way, that a friendship and
energy, not very determined, is easily put by. What a happy creature William must be! I wish we could see him.”
Poor Fanny’s mind was thrown into the most distressing of all its varieties. The recollection of what had been done
for William was always the most powerful disturber of every decision against Mr. Crawford; and she sat thinking deeply of
it till Mary, who had been first watching her complacently, and then musing on something else, suddenly called her
attention by saying: “I should like to sit talking with you here all day, but we must not forget the ladies below, and so
good-bye, my dear, my amiable, my excellent Fanny, for though we shall nominally part in the breakfast-parlour, I must
take leave of you here. And I do take leave, longing for a happy reunion, and trusting that when we meet again, it will
be under circumstances which may open our hearts to each other without any remnant or shadow of reserve.”
A very, very kind embrace, and some agitation of manner, accompanied these words.
“I shall see your cousin in town soon: he talks of being there tolerably soon; and Sir Thomas, I dare say, in the
course of the spring; and your eldest cousin, and the Rushworths, and Julia, I am sure of meeting again and again, and
all but you. I have two favours to ask, Fanny: one is your correspondence. You must write to me. And the other, that you
will often call on Mrs. Grant, and make her amends for my being gone.”
The first, at least, of these favours Fanny would rather not have been asked; but it was impossible for her to refuse
the correspondence; it was impossible for her even not to accede to it more readily than her own judgment authorised.
There was no resisting so much apparent affection. Her disposition was peculiarly calculated to value a fond treatment,
and from having hitherto known so little of it, she was the more overcome by Miss Crawford’s. Besides, there was
gratitude towards her, for having made their tete-a-tete so much less painful than her fears had predicted.
It was over, and she had escaped without reproaches and without detection. Her secret was still her own; and while
that was the case, she thought she could resign herself to almost everything.
In the evening there was another parting. Henry Crawford came and sat some time with them; and her spirits not being
previously in the strongest state, her heart was softened for a while towards him, because he really seemed to feel.
Quite unlike his usual self, he scarcely said anything. He was evidently oppressed, and Fanny must grieve for him, though
hoping she might never see him again till he were the husband of some other woman.
When it came to the moment of parting, he would take her hand, he would not be denied it; he said nothing, however, or
nothing that she heard, and when he had left the room, she was better pleased that such a token of friendship had
passed.
On the morrow the Crawfords were gone.